Observations In Gaming

I got a guy to like me yesterday. 

We were doing the usual things and I wanted him to really like me. I heard good stuff happens if you get people to like you. Getting his affection was happening too slow, so I did something I normally wouldn’t.

I drugged him.

After the drugging his affection for me increased exponentially. We even had a nice little chat. He didn’t seem to mind being drugged, which made my guilt even worse. 

This guy’s name is Jude Mathis. He’s a character in Tales of Xillia and its sequel. It was in the sequel that the drugging happened. I gave him friendship potions and it didn’t even seem to bother him. It bothered me a lot, though. I realized something about myself: I think about the most minor details of games far too much. I found myself thinking about this thing that sounds so simple, but in practice has horrifying consequences.

I focused my attention on Jude for a simple reason: He’s cute, and I wouldn’t mind seeing him and Xillia 2’s protagonist rolling around somewhere, preferably without clothing. Most people will get squicked out by that, I know, but we all like what we like. After drugging Jude, I couldn’t help but wonder: what if I’d used those friendship potions on female party member Leia? Or Milla? How would that have sounded, then? 

Games that have a mechanic that let you drug your party members into liking you seem innocent enough. In most cases, you do something genuinely nice for that character. Pokemon lets you massage your pokemon once per day, which is a nice thing to do. It provides a valid reason for your pokemon to gain affection for you. Star Wars: The Old Republic allowed you to buy your companions gifts to win their affection. 

Those are all okay. You’re doing something nice for that character, so it stands to reason that they’d like you more for it. 

It was different with Jude, though. As I used those potions, I imagined the ways in which Ludger was getting Jude to drink them. Perhaps it was mixed in with another drink. Maybe they’re actually pretty good drinks in their own right and Jude didn’t mind drinking them on his own.

What if Ludger was forcing those potions down Jude’s throat?

Affection from a potion, not from an act of kindness, has that sort of vibe. It feels all kinds of date-rapey and not very honest. I wish this system had been implemented in a way that didn’t drag out these sorts of impressions. After the sixth potion, Jude initiated a private skit with Ludger (aka me, the player) and told me how much he was growing to appreciate me. I wish I could take those potions back. That convo made me feel even worse.

Next playthrough, if my attention span holds out, I’m going drug-free. Those friendship potions are going into a salesperson’s inventory (might as well get some gald for that hefty debt the game throws at you, am I right?) I’ll win Jude’s affection the hard way, by agreeing with him, fighting at his side, and making sure monsters don’t mess up his pretty face.



Argh, I don’t know why I get sidetracked. Maybe I should get on a monthly schedule instead of weekly. It seems I can only post that frequently, right?

But, that’s the future. For now, we have updates! I have made a facebook page for my upcoming book: [Edit: I changed the page into a general author page and the url changed. The new link is https://www.facebook.com/AuthorTheaLarson ]This page features the cover art for my book and, in the future, snippets and trivia. I also have a twitter: https://twitter.com/KuraHikari I’m still trying to figure it out, but at least hashtags are interesting. (Hashtags still need to get off of facebook, though.)

The few people who have read Trust blind (that is, without me telling them about it beforehand) have said that they love it so, yay! My ending has made many people feel exactly how I wished them to. I can’t wait until everyone else can read it too! There are only a few more steps left in the process before Trust is ready for the world. I’m so excited that I can’t stand it!

In other random news, I watched the Avengers movie for the first time two weeks ago. I decided to do so because Captain America looked interesting. Also, Iron Man 3 had the events of the Avengers as a major part of Tony’s story. The character I ended up enjoying the most, however, was not Steve or Tony.

It was Loki. Tom Hiddleston was perfect, so much perfection, that I fell in love with Loki immediately. I watched Thor a few days later – not because of Thor, but for Loki. As a writer I was able to get inside his head for a week or so and it was marvelous there. I need my own deliciously snarky character because I can’t keep Loki.

So, that’s been my life in a nutshell. Let’s hope I can post again before September, right?